So yeah, tumblr, I got a few words. I’m fat. Like horribly, hugely obese. And while some people can be overweight and still in decent health, I’m not. I have type II diabetes and the high blood pressure that typically comes with it. I have major depression. My joints ache almost constantly and I get winded really easily. I’m not comfortable with my size either. I hate the way I look. I’m every bit as ashamed of my “garbage dump” body as the anon in that reblog believes I should be.
Being ashamed never helped me lose weight. It did make me very reluctant to ever leave my apartment, to go anywhere public on my own, to believe I could ever be wanted or accepted anywhere, or successful at anything I tried to do. Because if you’re fat, everybody can instantly see that you’re a failure.
Especially fat women. Since women have no value in society except what a man confers on them, an undesirable woman isn’t just worthless but objectionable. I should have made my appeal and availability for male gratification the number one priority in my life.
But my point is, fat is visible, so people judge it. They don’t know if I’m in the midst of a rigorous diet and exercise plan and just enjoying my bimonthly cheat day if I have a croissant. And they don’t know if I actually have better cholesterol and lower arterial plaque than most of the normal weight people around me. They don’t know I have a high IQ, or that I can draw and paint, or how much I love my siblings or how I treat my friends or how hard I try to be a good person. If you’re fat, you get judged as a failure at everything. Because no matter what is in your heart you “treat your body like a garbage dump”.
Meanwhile, the normal weight person off to my side, who is not getting judged, could be a serial liar, a philanderer, a molester, an animal abuser, an embezzler, a heroin addict, or any number of things you can’t immediately see. He could slam energy drinks and fast food all day, drugs and alcohol all night, but he’s not fat so clearly he has it under control. His body is not a “garbage dump” until he looks like me or Gabourey Sidibe. And thus he is a valued member of society because what’s inside never gets counted.
So where I’m going with this is, fat shaming like from that anon is just hateful, blind prejudice with ” health” used to justify its bigotry because fatphobic people would much rather tell other people they’re disgusting failures than spend even sixty fucking seconds examining their own beliefs. Health has nothing to do with it. Self-righteousness and hypocrisy have everything to do with it.
Anonymous asked: You should be ashamed to like Gabourey Sidibe. Nobody should be put up on a pedestal for treating their bodies like garbage dumps. Obesity is crippling and disgusting.
Let me introduce you to a concept that may be too earth-shaking for your ignorant, myopic little walnut mind to handle. Prepare yourself by putting on a diaper and warming up a bottle. I can wait.
A PERSON’S WORTH IS NOT DETERMINED BY THEIR BODY
FAT PEOPLE CAN BE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING ON EARTH THAT THEY WANT TO BE
FAT PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE AND ARE THUS INHERENTLY VALID AND IMPORTANT AND BEAUTIFUL
Please see yourself to the curb with the rest of the trash to be picked up, compacted, and hopefully moved to a place where the rest of the world doesn’t have to deal with you.